I cannot believe we've had this girl a year and a half! Most days it seems like she's been with us forever! I must admit, the last few months have been glorious! Lola has settled into the new house well and is loving that Adam works from home now. She has space to roam and it's finally able to say out of her kennel when we leave the house for a few hours. Parts of her are still puppyish, but she doesn't have accidents anymore and lays around more frequently.
Last night was a particularly rough evening for me. It wasn't a milestone, so it was pretty unexpected. I've learned to prepare for the 'milestone' days {27th of the month, holidays, 'firsts' that you're missing, etc.} in fact it was 40 days from yesterday. I'm assuming it was because last night was the first night the four of us were all home, together, and healthy enough to have dinner as a family and play together afterwards and you weren't here with us. Maybe I'm emotional because I'm still sick. Or just still pissed that you never got to move into the new house with us. How can it be home when we aren't all here? I'm not really sure, but I've given myself enough time that I wanted to write your story out.
Our first photo together -- at the Jefferson kennel [2009]
Every story has a beginning, middle, and end. This is Murdock's story. We love & miss you like crazy, Murd!
At our bridal shower [2009]
We brought you home just less than seven years ago. It was a cold winter Saturday morning, and I had just moved in with Adam a few months prior. We engaged yet, but I had been hinting that we needed a dog. Adam wasn't on board, until this morning when he woke up and showed me a website with you on it. We drove to Jefferson, IA that day. I fell in love with you immediately. I knew you were 'the one.' I was devastated that I couldn't take you home with me, but anxious to prepare for your arrival less than a week later.
One of my favorite photos of you
I remember your first car ride with me so vividly. We were in my Nissan Altima, me in the drivers seat, you in the passengers. But not for long. Before we made it out of the city limits, you were in my lap. We drove around a lot like that in those early years. You went every where with us -- errands, play dates, friend's houses, on walks, the dog park, and the lake.
Perhaps my favorite story with you is the night, less than a week after we got you, when I felt guilty about leaving you in your kennel when we went to dinner and to meet a friends' new baby in the hospital, so I let you ride along and stay in the car. We learned that night that you get anxious when lots of people are walking in and out, and as a result, you pooped all over the back seat of Adam's car. Thankfully it had leather seats. We also learned just how much I loved you that night when I cleaned it up.
You were hands down the most kind and gentle dog, and almost anyone that met you told us that, too. You never nipped at anyone--if you were annoyed you simply walked away. Simply put you were the best dog we could have had when we started adding kids to the family. My biggest fear is that they won't remember you--despite the number of 'horse rides' you gave them or 'hugs' they gave you.
In your early days you loved to go running with me which was one of my favorite times with you, other than going to bed each night. Every night was the same…you started in the bed with me and when Adam came to bed you hoped down to your pillow without hesitation. When we first got you, we kenneled you, but after just a few months we started leaving you out to roam all day. Considering we never 'trained' you and I can only think of a handful of 'Marley Moments' in 7 years, I would say you were a damn good dog! We were so lucky to find you.
We dealt with ear infections and skin allergies which paled in comparison to the vet bills that came in the following years. Shortly after Jordyn was born, you stopped eating and we almost lost you. We spent so much time and money at the Iowa State Vet clinic that year. The Derm department ran every test they could think of to get you better. The staff fell in love with you. I kept you alive on meat babyfood. I remember sending Adam to all of the stores in town to buy out what they had in stock. You were so sick Adam had to carry you up and down the stairs at our condo. At one point, you, Jordyn, and I moved to the lake house for a bit so you didn't have to deal with stairs. In the end, they determined you had an Auto-Immune Disorder. A disorder that you lived with for the next 4 years. I can honestly say I thanked God for you every single day of those 4 years. You always were my first baby.
Speaking of baby, you always knew as soon as I was pregnant and never left my side during that time. You were always great with Jordyn, but as soon as we added our baby boy, Cullyn to the family, you were instant best friends. You two were unseparable. You loved us all, but Cullyn was your buddy. He never quite learned how to say Murdock correctly, always sounding more like 'Marker'
You had several of nicknames over the years. Murd. Rufus. But most commonly, Murdock Allen. I know people thought we were crazy for giving you a middle name, but we didn't even think twice about it. It was totally unplanned, but the second Adam called you Murdock Allen, it just fit. And so you became Murdock Allen Hubbard.
We fell in love with you and we fell hard. You were my first, my only, pet. Which is why the end of your story is the hardest to write. My eyes are filled and that lump just won’t leave the back of my throat.
Thanksgiving morning we all packed up from the lake and headed to my parent's house. After lunch, you began hacking up white foam and drooling, which was uncommon for you. We assumed you had gotten part of someone's Thanksgiving meal, since a very unfortunate side effect of one of your medicines was that you always thought you were starving. So we grumbled about having to take turns leaving the living room to take you downstairs, through the garage, and outside. This went on through the night. I sent Adam to bed and stayed up with you--taking you out every 5-15 minutes. Just before 2a I started googling your symptoms, fearing your stomach was going to flip. I got down past upset stomach and saw bloat. I remember actually being relieved that that's 'all it was.' Stupid me. About 4a I looked at the site again and kept reading. That's when I knew what was happening. Your stomach was in fact flipping, like I had painfully watched--and sobbed through--in Marley & Me as a kid. I spent the next 4 hours preparing myself and deciding what to tell the kids. I knew that surgery wasn't an option, you had already been through so much. And at 7, I knew in my mind you had lived a really good live, despite what my heart was telling me. I cried, and cried, and cried while holding you. I held you almost every day for 7 years, I couldn't imagine not taking you to bed that night. I thought about all of the things you were going to miss and how I didn't get enough video of you with the kids.
Around 6a you finally stopped throwing up and drooling. I finally rested for a bit. At 8a, I called a local vet {a family friend about 45 minutes from my parent's house} She was off {it was Friday, Black Friday--which was always be black Friday for us now} but agreed to come in for us. So on Friday, November 27th, Adam and I took you to the clinic. Adam tried to insist I stay home and let him handle it, but I couldn't bear the thought of leaving you one second before I had to. I sat with you in the back of the van the whole way to the clinic. The vet said there was nothing she could do, your stomach had in fact flipped. At 10a, you took your last breath while laying on the floor of the Independence Vet Clinic. I was holding you and sobbing like a crazy lady and so thankful we were the only people in the clinic. Just like that, we left for the holiday weekend as a family of five and would go home as a family of four. Although the night was long, I remember thinking it was all happening so fast. So unexpected. I had a hard time convincing myself it was real.
Well the tears are streaming now and it's getting hard to read when I'm writing, plus I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to end this. Just know you're always on my mind, Murd. Some days I still wake up thinking I have to take you out and every time I walk in the door, I wait to be greeted by you.I only wish.
I'm thankful for every single one of these photos I made you take. There will never be enough.
We miss you every single day, Murdock. I love you more than you'll ever know. Mama
I can't believe you turned 7 today. We never thought you would see past your 3rd birthday. Every day you're here with us is a blessing. I say it all the time, but you are the best dog! I can't imagine our family with any other pet but you! Happy birthday to my first 'child'
PS…sorry I made you take your birthday on the hottest day of the year! :)
I met this little family because my husband works with the dad. We live in the same town & their little H is almost the same age as our little Cully. Plus we both have spoiled puppies, so we pretty much hit it off right away! :) It's been so much fun getting to know these guys. Enjoy!
Four weeks ago, I got a text from my sister asking if we had bandaids. It was two days before we left for vacation {which I'll post about one of these days!} which my sister was going on with us to help with the kids, so she was already in town and watching the kids for us that day. I didn't think much of it and responded where they were.
I couldn't get a great photo showing how deep it was. {All iPhone photos}
About 10 minutes later I get a phone call from my {upset} mom saying that Jordyn was okay, but that she was bit by the neighbor dog. I ran out of the office and flew home to take her to Urgent Care. At Urgent Care they gave me the option of stitching it, but we both decided it would probably be more traumatizing to do that instead of just letting it heal on it's own. Also, since it was on the back of her calf, I wasn't as concerned with a scar. They also sent us home with antibiotics.
We joked that she did this just so that mama would let her have a sucker {something very much not allowed on a normal day}
To say the homeowners didn't respond well would be an understatement, but since I have nothing nice to say, I'll say nothing at all about them. Other than... ANYONE that is a pet owner should take responsibility of their pet's actions {as you have to with children's actions} and if you don't {or won't} you shouldn't have a pet at all! {/rant}
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It should also be noted that it's healing beautifully and she handled all of it so well! :)
This month Murdock celebrated his 5th Birthday! It's hard to believe we've had him 4 1/2 years already {especially since we were told he wouldn't make it to his 4th Birthday}.
This pup was with us before we were engaged, married, or had any children. Although we've had our ups and downs {medically speaking} he has been the best dog we could have ever asked for. He 'trained' himself from the beginning, has been nothing but kind and gentle with his siblings {our kids}, and has taught me the true meaning of unconditional love.
I always joke that you're the most expense $100 dog I've ever known, but you've been worth every penny! We love you so much Murd!
I still can't believe our 'first' baby is 5 today. We've had him for nearly 4 1/2 years! It seems like just yesterday when I woke up and Adam finally said 'Let's look for a puppy.' I'd been saying it for a few months and he finally agreed. We went to a pound that afternoon and I picked him up a few days later. I'll never forget counting down the days until we could go get him...it seemed like forever!
We've had our ups and downs--both serious {spending months in Ames finding out he has an autoimmune disorder} and not {cleaning up diarrhea from the back of Adam's car a couple of weeks after buying him because he got nervous in the parking lot when we were out to dinner because I didn't want to leave him home alone--what was I thinking?!} but you have, hands down, been the best dog a family could ask for! You've never chewed up anything {without help!}, you're always excited to see us, and you're the best big brother ever--you a kind, loving, and let the kids climb all over you without moving an inch!
We love you So, So much!
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So many of you have asked about Murdock and I know I've been promising an update for months! Sorry! To be honest, his status has changed about 5 times since then! So here is the latest...
Overall, Murdock is doing GREAT! We've been reducing his medicine which is huge since it's so hard on his body. We haven't seen a new spot in months which is amazing. He had a bath the other day and his skin is looking awesome! Unfortunately, he's starting to have accidents {a side effect of his medicine} so we really have to watch you.
Today he is doing great. He's been up and down a few times in the past couple of months. We know that the medicine he takes is very hard on his organs {especially long term, and especially with large breed dogs}. The vet told us last summer he has a year or two at best, so we're just thankful for each day we get with him. With any luck, the kids will remember his amazing of a puppy he is.
..we rescued you from the Jefferson Pound so we really have no clue when your 'birthday' is
..you were left tied outside on Christmas Eve 2008
..we snatched you up on January 8..it was love at first site!
..your vet [who you LOVE] thinks you were born June of 2008 [according to your teeth..did you know that is how they guess a dogs age?!]
..you trained really easy & quickly!
..your favorite buddy is your cousin Uga..we love him too!
..although you really like everyone to pieces!
..as jealous as i am..you really are a daddys boy..you lay on the couch with him everynight!
..as soon as mama goes to bed though..you're right there beside me [until daddy comes to bed & kicks you to your pillow on the floor...remember that! :]
..you have lots of toys & don't really care about them..you prefer to go running with your mama, get pet by daddy, or playing catch outside!
..you also don't like food..dog food that is...you love table food that your mama sneaks to you! :)
..your newest friend is Harley..although sometimes you two do naughty things when you're together..like chase the birds!
..murdock..you are our first baby [even if you are a furbaby!]& your daddy & I love you to the moon & back! You will never know the amount of joy & happiness you have brought to us the past 17 months!
